Things happened and some has changed

Hai. Long time no write in this blank online paper. Haha. Yes i have a new life. In the different book of life. Never thought it will be like this before. But it's okay. Because i got new experiments. You know where is my school? It's in east java. Wanna know the name? It's Darussalam Modern Islamis Boarding School for girls 3 or Pondok Pesantren Gontor Putri 3. In that place, there's no internet or gadget for the students. So yeah, i leave my media socials in here. And ofcourse i missed some news. It's suck, tbh but that is how my life's going. I got chance to meet and know more people there, from different cities or even different countries. I live without myparents and far from home. Sometimes i got a homesick feeling and it's the worst feeling ever but bcs of that i knew how the boys feel when they got homesick. Bcs same, man. While i went away, i knew so many things happened and many things changed. There were happy new and the sad one too. But the saddest news that happened and effected to my life is the new about ZAYN MALIK OUT FROM ONE DIRECTION. When my friends told me about it, the first thing that come out from my mind was just "no. They are lying to you. It's just a joke. And never be true. Don't believe them." But i couldn't held my tears anymore and i cried almost a day full and i were looking for some true news from that place without internet. Until my friend who is not in the boarding school (she is in tangerang) told me about the same news. "It's true. And unbelievable." Zayn is my fav. I love him so much. It hurts me to know that he's not in the band anymore. Really. Night changes is the last music video that there's his existance. Four is the last album which there's his angel voice in there. So sad man. One Direction made by 5 persons. And now we lost one of them. I don't know what just happened in my fandom. No not only in my fandom, but in my life. Until this second, i still can't believe that zayn javaad malik is not in the band anymore. And the saddest part other is he made his hair to be bald. Yeah the hair that he used to love so much. And painted itwith green colour. Amd he got his nose pierced and his other ear too. No, i don't hate him. I still love him. -RFHS-