A Letter From Zayn Malik

Dear Zayn Javaad Malik or @zaynmalik I wanna tell you something from my deepest heart. I don't know how to tell you at the first. Because in twitter, you haven't followed me back so i can't send you a direct message. Oh even if you have followed me, i think you wouldn't read it anyway. And if i mention you in twitter and saying this thing you won't read it tho. So the last way that crossed in my mind it's just by write it in my blog. Maybe when you bored and just searched anything under the tag "zayn malik" or "zayn javaad malik" or even with your user name "@zaynmalik" this blog will appear and maybe you'll read this. Sorry because i have to say it, zayn. First i will let you know how much i love you. You know i adore you not just because your looks. Your look is good, more than good. You're like an angel. But the main thing is because your voice and your act towards something. Hey, i knew it because i've been in 1D fandom for about 3 years long. And you're my fav, zayn. When that news got heard by my ears the first that i thought was "no. It's just a joke. They're lying to you. Never believe them." But lil did you know, i cried and cried for almost a day full. And then when i finally knew that it's true. I still can't believeit until this second, zayn. It's just so unbelievable. I read your reason. I tried to make my brain to believeit and let it go. But, it's not that easy. My heart hurts. It hurts so much, man. Second, when i told my close friend about it she said "calm down, Has. May be after he out from the band, he will be back to Allah again. He will be back to His straight way, be more religious." And i hope too. I wished you read Qur'an again, pray to Allah again. But when i just got home today (8/6/15) my aunt told me "who's the one with "malik" he painted his hair green" me: "seriously? How did you know?" Her: "i read at detik (it's one of newspaper's name) " and then exactly i looked for it at the internet and i opened one of the web. Perrie's photo appeared. It's you and her. Didn't make me shock enough. But the things that made me shock are 1. You cut your hair until bald and then painted it. Sorry i don't mean anything. But it's just looked like you're stressed enough bcs something and i don't want you to feel it :( 2. You pireced your nose and your other ear. I know you like naughty boy but i don't want you to be dressed like that. Because i want you to back, zayn. Not back again to one direction. But please back to your God. Allah. Sorry. I said like this not because i critic you, but it's because i love you. Just as a remind, i'm a muslim and you're too. I just don't want you to be in a wrong way. I remember when you were in one direction, part of your body that it's so important tou you was your hair :"") no one couldn't touch it because you forbid them haha that's why i got shocked when i saw that photo. I'll love you for who you are but it's just out of the limit. And i remember too a fact said like this: " Once, harry was crying for hours just because Zayn said he will leave the band on the 30th of february." But zayn, it's not even 30th of February yet, why did you leave? The saddest part is that i'll never hear your angel voice again colaborate with the other 4 angels' voices. I'll never see you in the other music video. I hope you understand this, zayn. (If you read this, and i hope you read this) i just wanna say what in my heart. Sorry sorry sorry and thankyou, zayn. You're one of the pencil colours that has coloured my life. I love you and i'll aways love you ♥ -RFHS-